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~ Its not a happy day here... I'm heartbroken and hate that I have to get on here to share that Cash died early this morning, sometime in the past few hours, when I checked on him around 3ish am he was fine. Theres a lot of what if's I'm beating myself up over right now... When I took him to the vet, the vet checked him good and said the only thing Cash needed was groceries... I should have kept tube feeding him, I should have just kept him in the house with me from the day I took him to the vet, he would drink off momma when he had the chance, drink alittle from the bottle, nibbled on hay, grass, weeds and the grain, was drinkin water and yesterday I saw him poop the lil goat ball poop.... all those were good signs but he still needed more milk. I wish now I could have tube fed him last night instead of letting him drink alitte from the bottle. This is the hardest part of being the caretaker to all my farm animals... my heart is so big, I love them. I know this comes with having farm animals. From now on when Star has triplets I will be taking 1 off to keep as a bottle baby. 

When I think back to last years May 2012 kids, Star had 1 that was really small, June... I think this was goin on with her, I just didnt realize it and she must have been gettin just enough to grow... my friend Rachael bought June (and 2 others), we weaned them at 1 month old, maybe that saved Junes life... I dont know... 

My heart is sad, but it will heal, Cash will always have a place in it. I know I did my best and gave him a good home while he was here. I'm glad I got to enjoy and love on him... I also learned from him.

I sat down in the goat barn after chores and loved on Ruby and Willie